The Wonder Project: Rainbows at my Feet

I have stopped trying to number the days in this project. It doesn’t make sense if I am not posting daily. I try but often the day drains away before I can get to it.

I am so happy to post today though. I found this wonder in the grass, early in the morning when there was still a hint of frost on the ground. I say it often, but it astounds me that God would put so much beauty in the places that we step. How he loves us! This is a grace that I often overlook. I have to train my eyes, my senses, my heart to see it. God loves me.

I found a wonder the other day that I cannot find a way to photograph yet. I happened upon it one summer’s night while walking to the barn. In the woods, on the trees, in the grass, I saw shimmers of light when I passed my flashlight over these places. It was as if there were diamonds embedded in the earth. I was puzzled and investigated further to understand what this was. I followed each sparkle and they all led to a tiny spider. The backs of these spiders literally shone in the light. I was surprised! You must know, I am afraid of spiders. I have feared them my whole life. The sight of them makes me shudder. Or used to. These spiders carried on their backs a beacon of light. So strange to me and yet so wonderful. Only God would place beauty on the back of a creature that I formerly considered  creepy. It was if he was taking something I feared and turning it into something beautiful.

The other night as I walked to the round pen where my horse was recovering from colic I saw them again. Everywhere! I had a headlamp on my head and everywhere I turned I saw them. My kids laugh at me. I call them the sparkle spiders. ” You should see the sparkle spiders tonight,” I told Annie as we walked along the drive on one of our nightly walks. She smiled. Yes, her mother is a little crazy. And childish. But that’s okay.

Lately I have been pondering my life a lot. I wonder if I am spending my time well. I wonder if I am reaching my potential for God’s kingdom. Frankly, I have often found myself spiraling down, wondering if I can find my true purpose in my Father’s plan. The days can be lonely with children grown and a once-full house echoing silence. I do not want to spend my days editing in front of a computer alone. There has to be more.

There is.

I know it when I see the sparkle spiders. I know it when I see the drops of dew shining every color imaginable. If he cares enough to put a beacon of hope on the back of a tiny spider and if he cares enough to shine his glory on my very feet, he cares about my life. He cares about my purpose. And he cares about you too. I tear up at the thought of it. He does care.

Do you see him today? I pray he would speak to you and show you his love. I believe he is. We just have to stop and listen. And see.

There he is.

Psalm 8:3,4 ~” look up at your macro-skies, dark and enormous, your handmade sky-jewelry, Moon and stars mounted in their settings. Then I look at my micro-self and wonder, Why do you bother with us? Why take a second look our way?” ( The Message Version)

“The world is full of magic things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper.”  ~ Yeats