After I posted about the vision the Lord gave me last week, some asked where I have been. My blog and public presence were quite active for many years. Then came the quiet.
It has been a long hard winter. I don’t mean the last three months. I mean the last several years. We all know it. You can see it in the eyes of the weary teenager checking out the grocery line and in the honking horns of the angry drivers on the highway. Life has been hard and cold on this planet.
What does all of nature do when winter comes? The plants, the trees, and many of the animals- they go to sleep.
I feel like I have been asleep for a decade. Before the pandemic- before the great fear. For me, it started with the sudden and tragic death of my mom. Grief came like a giant blanket and laid me deep into the earth. I struggled for awhile to stay awake- to be present. Then came great grief in relationships and issues with our community that further isolated me. Sorrow kept rocking me, shushing me into darker places. “Stay here by yourself. You are alone. Hush now “. These were the words I heard over and over.
Jesus never left me. I wasn’t alone. I was however, just so tired.
But here it comes. Can you feel it? The Great Healing is coming. God is coming. The earth is shaking under the weight of His running feet as He comes to rescue- to heal us all. He never took His eyes off of any of us. He had His gaze fixed ever so firmly on our little fluttering hearts. I can feel the weight of His glory even now, the beautiful intimacy of His Presence.
Revival is breaking out across the earth. His Spirit is warming us to life again. Our response-my response- is to worship.
Jesus! Our Redeemer is so close! Blessed be your Name. You alone are good. May the warmth and light of Your Presence draw us out of our slumber. I am so ready.
“You, oh Lord, keep my lamp burning. My God turns my darkness into light”. ~ Psalm 18:18
“It seemed like a dream, too good to be true, when God returned Zion’s exiles. We laughed, we sang. We couldn’t believe our good fortune. We were the talk of the nations — ‘God was wonderful to them!’ God was wonderful to us; we were one happy people. And now, God, do it again. Bring rain to our drought-stricken lives so those who planted their crops in despair will shout ‘Yes!’ at the harvest, so those who went off with heavy hearts will come home laughing, with armloads of blessing” ~ Psalm 126:1-6 (The Message)
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I long for that healing as well.
Love this. I feel the expectancy!!!
Mary Ann, thank you for writing about your time of grieving and aloneness. I have been dealing with that since my daughter died in October, 2015. It is helpful to me to learn that you, one of the most beautiful Christians (inside and outside) that I know, dealt with the same things I did. It has made me feel like a failure as a Christian, as a wife and mother because I couldn’t shake it. But, like you, I have been sensing the stirring of God in my heart and soul. There is a sense that He is available, and that I am receptive to his wooing – a knowing that all will be well in His time and that it begins now. revival for all is here. Thank you.
You wrote as beautiful heartfelt post. I’m
Glad you could share your honest emotions of a very difficult time in our journey here on earth. And I am so glad you feel the peace and presence of Jesus as we all love with expectancy for a rebirth as the season of rebirth arrives. He is faithful in all things and in all circumstances! Hold on to His promises!
So very sorry for all the hard times you’ve been through and glad you’re emerging through the other side now. Have missed your posts but it has definitely been a difficult time in so many ways for so many. You are an inspiration!