Grief can feel like this.
It has become difficult to see clearly — difficult to even think clear thoughts.
I forget things. I put things that are supposed to go in the closet into the fridge. I miss appointments with clients. I go to bed wondering what I did during the day.
I read that fog can be considered a cloud at ground level. Perhaps this fog is not grief at all, but God. Perhaps it is his glory cloud come to surround us, enclose us and soften the hard edges of a reality we alone cannot bear.
When I think of it in this way, it is easier to rest in the fog. I cannot control my grief and in trying to do so I only belabor my healing. I can however surrender to the the God who enfolds me in his gentle cloud.
Exodus 13:21 ~ “By day the Lord went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night.”
Oh, don’t even try to control it. Lean into it, for as long as it lasts. And let that cloud enfold you. Glory goes with you, even into the pit.
And let a smile slowly unfurl as you remember God’s furry little gift during this winter moment of your life…Winter….
Yes, the glory cloud…. Reminds us that we are only temporary travelers here with God showing us the way in the cloud by day and the fire by night… till we are led to our eternal home with our beloved Lord Jesus and our loved ones. You are in my continued prayers for God’s comforting presence during this time.
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thank you for sharing this. we lost our 16 yr old nephew last Sunday to a blog clot to the lung. so sudden and so unexpected and our families have just been hurting so much. I found a link to this post in my e-mail last night when I felt like I was in this “fog” and couldn’t see any good or get out. these words were just what I needed. I am so sorry for your loss as well.
Yes, you are doing the bravest thing: to lean into it + trust Him to carry and sustain. “All the way my Savior leads me, what have to ask beside.”
I’m reading this while in grief from the loss of my friend almost three weeks ago who also died from a blood clot in his lungs. May we always find comfort in God’s presence