Day 9 Janey and June

These puppies are my constant companions. Janey is on the left and she is my mama dog for the puppies we breed. June is her baby girl that we kept from the last litter. They are my sweet friends.

Today was a hard day for me and they stayed by me the whole day. Sometimes grief comes on like a surprise attack. One minute I am fine and the next I feel like I can’t get out of bed. Today was one of those days. I am familiar with grief and I  know that when days like this happen it is good to be kind to myself. Sometimes it takes awhile for me to remember that but when I do it helps so much.

Being kind might mean taking a walk in the sunshine, taking a nap, pouring a hot cup of tea or lighting a candle. Sometimes it is calling a friend, or snuggling with these two puppies. They help me a lot.

Often it is just remembering to breathe, one breath at a time. The pain of grief can make us forget to breathe. Breathing helps to unravel the balled up pressure that sits on my chest like an elephant.

I also pray. Praying helps me to remember that God is near, especially when he feels so far away. He never leaves us or forsakes us but pain can make us feel so isolated. Prayer and scripture remind me of the truth. He is love and he is good and he cares deeply for us.

If you have had a hard day too, take courage. This is one day down and we can do this. And if you need me to, maybe I can bring Janey and June over for a visit. ( I do hope to make them both therapy dogs someday.)

Blessings and love,

xoxo

Mary Anne

 

Psalm 34:18 ~”The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”