Open
I can’t take my eyes off them. The red tulips on the table are stretching wide to let the morning sun in. They are teaching me about worship and vulnerability and how closely those two are linked.
This has been a tough season for me, I know. I can feel my edges grating against one another as I have closed myself off more than I wanted to. Even writing my 365 Project this time around has been tedious. It takes practice to open and expose the inmost places to the light again. It just so happens a 365 Project is great for practice.
I gaze at the blossoms who make worship look so easy. Just look at them. Uninhibited, they are holding nothing back in their worship. I find their example so winsome and desirable.
I want to be like the tulips, unafraid and beautiful in my pursuit of God and authenticity. The places in me that have closed down in a season of pain will open again. This season of darkness will certainly close as a season of joy overtakes it. I know this deeply in my spirit. In the meantime I am so very grateful. I am counting his gifts daily and watching the life come into the weary places. God is so very good.
Psalm 81:10 ~”I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.”
Uninhibited
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I too, share your love of the tulips, and all other beauties of nature, reflecting God to us! May that beauty continue to soothe and soften your edges, and comfort you.
Thank you <3
This today speaks to me – so beautiful.
On November 11, 2015 I lost my husband. Just a month after you lost your mom. In your own words he was “home to my soul”. I came upon your blog shortly after by chance ,(or was it by the hand of God? Yes). I felt your pain and wept along with you but, at the same time, I found comfort in your words. Your beautiful photos and exquisite words soothed my soul and reminded me that God is always there to hold me. I kept coming back everyday for more. Then you stopped posting and I understood that too. Like me, you were closing up. I never gave up, but kept checking your blog almost every day. I thank God that you are back. You have no idea how many people you are leading to the Source of all comfort. You say things that resonate with so many, and you say them like we never could. You have a gift. Like you, I so want to open up, again, and be unafraid. I want to surrender to the warmth of His love and worship Him with abandon. I’m writing to encourage you to continue. There are people who are on the same journey as you and me who need to hear your words because they genuine, hope filled words and ALWAYS point to the One is is able to bring life out of death and make all things new. Thank you for being obedient and courageous.
Nitsa,
What kind words.Thank you so much. I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. Love and blessings to you and thank you for the encouragement friend. <3