365 2014 Day 12 Reflect

Our nest has become very quiet these days. More often than not, it is just me here in this house. I stay pretty busy with my work, but often the silence comes for me and I cannot outrun it. God is showing me that it’s okay to be alone. After all, he never leaves me. It is good for my heart to hear its own beating, without the clamor of activity and busyness. A good friend posted this today from Oswald Chambers’ devotional My Utmost for His Highest and it resonated deeply with me.

Have you ever been alone with God? Jesus doesn’t take us aside and explain things to us all the time; He explains things to us as we are able to understand them. The lives of others are examples for us, but God requires us to examine our own souls. It is slow work— so slow that it takes God all of time and eternity to make a man or woman conform to His purpose. We can only be used by God after we allow Him to show us the deep, hidden areas of our own character. … But Jesus will reveal to us everything we have held within ourselves before His grace began to work. How many of us have learned to look inwardly with courage?” 

The quiet is absolutely necessary for me, as much as it hurts to feel alone sometimes. If I will allow my heart to not fear the silence, I find him there waiting for me. My heart stretches again into trust and my fears are laid to rest. He is with me, no matter what. No matter who comes or goes, or what I do. He is with me in the silence. It is there that I can reflect on his faithfulness. He can be trusted.

Be at peace. God is near.

Psalm 73: 28 ~”But as for me, how good it is to be near God!
    I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter,
    and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.”