365 Project Day 261: Overwhelmed

Canon 5D Mark ll, 50 1.2L, 2.2 aperture, 1/500 shutter 100 ISO

These images are of the beautiful Evelyn Nelson, the daughter of Phil and Kirsten Nelson and the granddaughter of my good friends Jack and Gerri McEntee. I took this image last year, but I have had it on my mind and heart and felt it was appropriate for this post.

Ever feel like this?

I have been thinking about this image a lot over the past few days. It is one of my favorites. I feel like I could be her, in that little blue chair, ringlets falling down around her like a crown of sunshine. I am not sure if it is her posture, her expression, or her little furrowed brow that I can relate to the most. Annie would say she is feeling “thinky”. Whatever it is, she just looks like I feel right now. There are no words to wrap around the ache I feel when I am overwhelmed. I have managed once again to entrap myself in a world of busyness that leaves me little or no margin to breathe. Lost in my thoughts, I feel alone and tired. I am in need of a rescue. I need to hear from my God.

I am asking God these days about vision and direction for the gifts He has placed in me. I know deep down there is another path to take, but I do not yet see it, so I am continuing on the one I do know. There is a burning deep inside that tells me something more is waiting. The welling up of a new work. This should feel exciting, but it is exhausting, thinking about the new while continuing in the old.

Like a child, I am waiting for the arms of one stronger than I to lift me up and carry me on. I need a rescue.

Or maybe just a nap.

Joy is on the horizon. I will continue to wait on the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31 ~ “but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”