Uncertain
Canon 5D Mark ll, 100 2.8 macro, 3.5 aperture, 1/80 shutter, 100 ISO
Sometimes there is nothing more painful than living in the middle of uncertainty. Desiring to do the right thing, I waver between choices as if my whole life hangs in the balance. The fear of regret towers over me, as I pray for answers. Uncertainty can render me useless to this world, freezing me in my tracks until I feel I know what direction I should go. The truth is, I just want to know with complete confidence the best thing to do.
But I cannot. Because I am human, and because I live in a world where nothing is certain, I must learn to balance on this seemingly unsteady ground.
I do not believe this state of “extreme carefulness” is what God intended for me. When I think of my own kids, I would much rather see them running ahead with passion and joy, than to linger behind tied up in fear. That would make me very sad. No, that is not the heart of a parent. Life is full of risks. That is why it is life. Only death is certain. Life is fragile and unpredictable, but isn’t that what makes it beautiful?
Reaching Upward
The answers? I don’t have all of them. I am finding my way, as I continue to seek God. I do believe there is more life and joy to be had in stepping out into the unknown, than there is in hanging back until I know exactly what to do. I may never know exactly what to do, but I have a Father in Heaven who does. If I am seeking Him with all my heart, and things still seem unclear, sometimes I think He says, “What do you want to do? Do whatever that is and I will be with you.” He wants me to know my own heart. He created it. If He is with me and I with Him, I know He will make all things right, even if I don’t do everything perfectly. Which I most likely won’t.
Like a parent, sometimes watching from a distance, sometimes holding my hand, He will love me and lead me through all things. That much is certain.
Isaiah 30:21 ~ “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”
Open and Ready
Perfectly Arranged
5 Comments
I really needed this one today, MaryAnne. Thank you so much! I am guilty of staying in that “careful” place too. I needed the reminder that sometimes I need to just take that step of faith, believing He will meet me there. Blessings to you and your family from Southern California!
these are beautiful so vivid and clearly focused.
MaryAnne, your photography is beautiful and your words so wise, I am always waiting for that “for sure”feeling and need to remember “He will make all things right.” Faith is sometimes so hard to live.
I read your blog daily and find such inspiration from your words and photos. I cannot begin to express how deeply you have encouraged me along this life’s journey–Thank you
Thank you, Kim. 🙂 I am so glad you stopped by!
Amazing pics, your photography is stellar! You constantly amaze me….