Reflecting
Canon 5D MArk ll, 50 1.2L, 1.8 aperture, 1/125 shutter, 125 ISO
I pull back the sheets and climb into bed, shaking my head while whispering prayers of repentance. I say I am sorry, and ask for help. Somehow, along the way, I have forgotten again. It is as if I am starting at the beginning. I knew what to do. I knew the proper order of the things. The truth was not hidden from me, but shone brightly in the Holy Words I read. Yet, somehow I forgot. Again.
I put things before people. I tried to earn my way into grace. I confused who I am with what I do. I mismanaged time, love, people and my own heart. I failed to see that if I put God first, everything else comes to me. Instead, I put everything else first.
I feel frustrated and saddened by this. Why do I forget? Why do I look into the Mirror of Truth, the Holy Word, and then walk away, forgetting what I should look like? . I do not know.
I do know this. There are new mercies riding in on the morning light, and His goodness and love will chase me down, until I am bathed in glory. I will put my hope in God, and I will remember.
Holding onto Hope
Psalm 23:1- 6 ~ “God, my shepherd! I don’t need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.
Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I’m not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd’s crook
makes me feel secure.
You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.
Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life. ”
I’m back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.
Remembering
3 Comments
Me too : ) ) Holding On to Hope in him and letting him direct my paths daily!
I have the same problem. I think I remember the Apostle Paul saying that the things he wanted to do, he didn’t do and he did the things that he didn’t want to do. I think it is a human problem, but being a Christian, we think that we should be perfect and we aren’t. The Holy Spirit lives in us and helps us, but we still live in the world. If it makes you feel any better, your Mama thinks that you are pretty near perfect.
[…] under their voice. If I am not careful, I find myself spinning round, forgetting to look in the mirror. To check my directions […]