365 Project Day 130: Smallness

Canon 5D Mark ll, 100mm macro 2.8, 3.2 aperture, 1/80 shutter, 100 ISO

Something in me broke open when I saw her smallness today. The tension I had been carrying for days finally burst. I fell to my knees, relieved, and grateful. She was no bigger than the tip of my pinky finger, and yet she had within her worlds within worlds. Tiny flowers overlaid the soft and tufted spikes she projected. I laughed and then I cried. She was trying to be tough, but she was soft and delicate on the inside. I was she, and she me in that moment. I felt small too, but not diminished in value. When I saw her I knew it instantly. I was too small to be carrying all these burdens.  I was not meant to.

Somehow she helped me put it all in perspective. I was praying when I found her. It was if God had laid her at my feet and said, “See?”.  A picture really is worth more than a thousand words. I did see. I understood what He was trying to tell me. He would be God, and I would be me. That was the deal. He is magnificent and boundless and able to handle all. I will trust and worship. If He puts that much care and detail into a flower no larger than my finger tip, how much more must He care for me? That is what I saw in that one glimpse. How He speaks to me in the flowers.

Luke 12:28 ~ “If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!”